January 2005




	4th January 2005: Well, got through yesterday without much hassle and managed to return the three items without feeling as if I was doing something wrong... Am much happier :) This evening I hope to go to Tesco's to claim my free lip balm and to buy some sore throat sweets - since I have a cold and am ill... got a lot of nice emails from friends recently and enjoyed having time yesterday to reply to them... Will be seeing a friend Christina this weekend and also visiting Jim... I want to also buy something small for my brother and his girlfriend in the sales and also something small for my Mum & Dad... maybe I can convince Jim to go with me to the dreaded Brent Cross shopping centre (Muhahaha!) - it should be open on a Sunday... 2nd January 2005: Hello, I disappeared for a while... Just finished watching 'The Art of Travel' by Mr de Botton... it was quite interesting... I actually plan to go to Barcelona with a friend... but I wonder - because I knew it from the few holidays I had when I was a child - you cannot escape from yourself even when you are a child... but I go this time - with openness... and I think I will enjoy it... Also, I have been less active online because I have acquired a new boyfriend... who is very nice - and we have lots to talk about and in common... and I have been busy lounging around with him at the weekends and hence no spending time at home writing diaries at the weekends... I am happy... it's strange but I never had a proper boyfriend before... would like to announce to the world who he is - but I am paranoid and am afraid that not all people out there want me to be happy and would try to destroy things/ me... get to me in ways... Anyway, watching Alain de Botton on TV has sparked off a few flowing ideas for me... :) I haven't watched much TV over X'mas and realised I don't really watch it anymore and started/ stopped taking in info... (was discussing it with Jim - ok - I had to name him - give him a name - instead of 'the boyfriend' - yes he did get a mention before (in this WebDiary) - but then I didn't know how well we would get on together... We are going to build an Eco-House... :) Anyway, other things... went to a New Year's Eve party - my second one since I was born... good going eh - since I am nearly 30 soon (in two years)... I really enjoyed it because I had Jim with me - and he looked after me - since it was his invite and his people he knew - I didn't know anyone there except George... is this bad writing online and suddenly naming people? please give me a shout (Jim) if you think I should change and return to my normal kind of not giving out too much info... such as you wouldn't know my surname unless somehow you were friendly with me - ie complete strangers who crawled onto my site by accident will still know me as Annie - but that's fine - since I don't like my surname much anyway... Jim is a computer geek - but not your normal kind - he is quite sociable and knows a lot of people... and is a really nice person... and knows lots of things that I don't know... he thinks I am a geek too - by the way I think... I keep thinking he is wrong but maybe he is right... Other things: - got to return dress from Next - because I don't like it now and changed my mind - bra from M&S - it doesn't fit properly - book on Bricks from Waterstones - because am sure the woman at the counter thought I was pushover and she didn't like me and so didn't give me the free booklet with £100 worth of book vouchers - and besides that was the main reason I bought it there and not online... but I was polite; paid and left - but (Jim) said it was mis-advertising and I could have rights... anyway will return it tomorrow - think I didn't like the service and I got ripped off by mean shop assistant who just didn't like me... and will go to Amazon instead - who I like and who never let me down... and who also have the same book with a 30% discount... Things to do this year are to work hard - and try to expand in ways that are waiting in the wings... I know myself more and more now... and just have to stop and not let the paranoia and so on get in the way... also the inferiority complex... that allows people to make me feel like a piece of dog turd... Wish me luck in returning my three items tomorrow :) 1st January 2005: Happy New Year! I hope and wish that you all look forward to this new year and are able to achieve goals and ambitions... Also, look after yourselves and don't do destructive behaviour/ things... I wish you find your wishes and can have some that come true... Good luck for the new year! xxx :)