It's time to make cut backs... I am not going to buy any more books for a while...
and read those that I have bought - which will take me some time :-PAlso, this will make me see things differently - time for a shake up - to re-generate new ideas :-)... hope some new solutions will arise when I
re-arrange things...
It's time to implode - like a universe? and just re-coup and quietly live life without too much external input... but to look inwards to see what I have got... at home in my room – see what I have
stored up… like a squirrel...
10th September 2005:
Hello... It had been a hard day at work yesterday... busy, busy, busy... we were rushing for a deadline and only got the best part of
it done... I feel a bit as if I haven't finished it - but we have got more time next week to update it... but it got pdf-ed and dwg-ed to the client and associated people late yesterday...
Only hope they like
what we have produced and see that it is ok that we have more time next week to sort it out and get it properly finalised... hope they will be impressed by the elevations because I am quite pleased with how they turned
out...
Also, going to be doing my portfolio soon... will buy a coir mat from Argos... maybe look round some charity shops and give the 9 plants of rowan trees to charity - they seeded from the rowan tree in my
garden...
Am waiting around at Jim's workplace as he is doing something to the computers... but planning things... will look on my list of things to do...
Also, have to thinking about tidying up my room at
some point - since there is a lot of filing to be done... but generally things are going ok...
Still bit of a blow to my wallet about the car - but it is clearing and things are getting fixed and I can
return to normal... got to sort out my finances...
Work is good but a lot of what I do is quite time-consuming though it might be fairly straight forward and easy... - it's just when there isn't enough time to do
it all - in the way I want to do it... - this is mainly talking about presentation layout drawings...
8th September 2005:
People who hurt me – hurt them back if they still continue to hurt me, at
least then it will move on from the stale mate – where I act passively & just get trodden on… (but I didn't want to go down this route…) – maybe I can back track and only do it to certain people who continuously
hurt me… Maybe, bizarrely – by fighting back and giving someone a piece of what they dish out to me – will actually help me to overcome this. ie I might actually stop their nasty actions directed at me…
7th September 2005:
This evening left the office at 7.30pm instead of 7pm. We had to deal with the flying ants that were congregating down behind the front reception door/ skirting board... In the end, Brian had
to call David at home to come back in with some ant powder...
5th September 2005:
It is 1pm at work... there is still a clog up of stuff... am preparing myself best I can for when things
get unclogged and I have to frantically do a lot of things all at once/ ASAP...
Just eaten too much for lunch... feel a bit sloggish... tonight I am going to read Status Anxiety again... Am trying to get it
finished... I also took out from the library a book on Dreamweaver and Flash... they were pocket books and I have read most of them now over the weekend...
Just got to download a trial version of Dreamweaver... the
hope is that I can master it... after having used NetObject Fusion... and then I will beable to master other things... it also helps with the GIMP as well...
It is now 2.30pm... I have done a bit of work... but once again it is going slowly...
This evening I am going to start the chapter on Christianity... I am also going to cancel my aj's and Architectural Reviews because
basically I don't read them... and then when I have cancelled I will start reading them backwards... also running out of room to store them...
Nearly the end of the day... today has been quite productive apart from
the slow start... but really it wasn't a slow start because I had to be here for 8am to help prepare for a meeting... it is now nearly 6pm... I am just printing something and might stay on later to try to finish that
and get it out of the way :-)
3rd September 2005:
A new month... still really hectic... but seemingly still to have some spare time... I feel energy still... feel like saving money...
when you are in flow all things seem to fall into place... I am quite happy...
Am a bit hungry at the moment... we will go out to Somerfield in a moment...
Feel like tidying up... I didn't get very far with the C
programming book... but at the moment it is not top priority... I feel now that I can always come back to it at a later date and continue it...
Have been reading books and am busy thinking about things... I realise
that I hoard books and then read them later on when the time is right... so maybe I will get round to reading Harry Potter in 8 years time...
Am tidying up this weekend... I have taken a day off next month in order so
that I can have a day to rest, be by myself and do things... re-organise...