31st August 2007:

Ooops! It was Ed's birthday on the 18th August… I hope he had a good birthday…

I am back here to do some tidying up of stuff… I hope to transfer my program over to the flat so that I can upload from there. :-)

29th August 2007:

Whoa..! I know I am tired when I have to THINK! to walk down the stairs at work to stop myself from falling... been doing that a lot lately...

27th August 2007:

Just tucking into a black & red currant crumble with apricots... yum, yum... I haven't been writing the webdiary for a while now - seems like... Been quite busy doing stuff for the flat... but this bank holiday weekend has been quite productive... :-)

There are just so many house things we have got to buy... and do...

Hmmm... It is 7.30pm... and Jim has built our new pine desks from Ikea... they are actually dining tables but we got one each for our work stuff... This evening I got to make sure Jim/ we get up early enough tomorrow so that he knows how to get to his new job etc... I might do a bit more tidying up - no, I will plan what I have got to do in my lunch hour tomorrow... also David might not be in tomorrow - I can't seem to remember what work I was left to do... but anyway, it's sitting on my desk there...

21st August 2007:

Very tired lately... There is so much going on... my head is spinning... I don't know how I am managing to keep sane (?)... - by being hyper at work and just ploughing through things - which is good... at least I have no work worries about deadlines - since we are doing the stuff before a deadline has even been set... just keep ploughing straight far ahead...

This weekend I hope to catch up on some sleep... and bake rock buns... and we will go swimming in the evening perhaps on Saturday...

20th August 2007:

It is 5pm... I am really tired... We got to get a fridge and a washing machine...

17th August 2007:

I've realised that I am quite sneaky... and that if someone is problematic to something but I need to get on with them - I will waive the olive branch and allow myself to be hit with it... kind of... if I know that it is for the best because they are not what is important at the moment but there is some greater good to be done... and without this persons cooperation I would find it more difficult and have my energies diverted away from my task that I want to do...

... And so I waved it and allowed them to become alpha dog...

... And I feel ok about it - I am happy - there are no feelings of hatred when I do this but just kind of a 'love' or 'care' towards this person... I would like to reach out to them but realise that I am not the one they want to speak to... and my part is to give them the alpha dog position and pacify the situation... (however, my original aim has been strengthened because I got them on my side :-)

... At the moment, a lot of things have happenned and my mother is quite ill recently... I have been really worried... but I thought it was time to update the webdiary - Ed Norton's been taking centre stage on the page for too long now ;-)

We have moved in together - Jim & I... the flat is still lovely... we have to go to Ikea to get some desks and shelving parts... ok - am really tired... I'm going to sleep now... I feel a lot better today after interacting with this person and giving them the position of authority...

8th August 2007:

oh my God! Edward Norton go away! - sorry, it's not that he's really pestering me but every time I think of green issues and want to write about them and hear myself putting them into words - some ideas to change things - I hear him say them to audiences in a auditorium and it kind of goes all weird... - and he takes centre stage - how am I supposed to live like this? - plus he's ruining my life by being green and ethical and then I lose focus and focus on him - instead of the cause - God damn it!

I just realised that although the people at work are nice, they are really quite selfish... and when I talked about my views to change the world they seemed to just shrug their shoulders...

7th August 2007:

Ah, ah confusion! Never have I known a website to cause such confusion... we must stop her/ she must be stopped (before she causes any more mayhem...

I suppose that is what happens when I write a Webdiary and do not know the people who read it... hopefully, it isn't used for anything sinister... and just an insight into someone's life... and struggles - to help those who are struggling also... that's all I wanted to be... and to keep it anonymous so that it isn't made as a tribute to friends etc or something like that...

1st August 2007:

Ok - I am just going to work away and keep working etc... a lot of stuff is being sorted out anyway... and I think I am back on schedule again at work from the holiday...

Ok - to print out a rough draft of the drawings I am working on... Head still feels tense/ tight... but I think the brain still is working...

Ok - next thing to do is to see what info I can transfer quite happily to this set of drawings... and then circle and ask David regarding the bits I am unsure of...

Google docs is really good... I quite like it :-)

... Just been listening to Jack Johnson in the car on the way home - kind of mellow hazy daisy 8-)