30th April 2008:

Oh no! - I read about other people's 'blogs' - and I feel mine is... is a bit stupid... but then again - maybe not - it may be that the many googlebots take great pleasure in trawling through my site, updating their records :-P

Anyway, I thought I would babble... at the moment, I am going to bed later and having more time to myself to do things - which is good :-) I will read a chapter of my book in a moment... but I feel happy alert and in a buzz at the moment... what else can I do? I don't know... been feeling happy and lucky lately - and it's been like this for ages and I haven't dropped into a depression...

28th April 2008:

I like to cook... This evening I made raisin oatie biscuits... The time now is 8.40pm.

27th April 2008:

I have realised a few things - that I actually function better on fewer hours of sleep and that I don't have time to read all the books - and should only pick out the important ones or the ones that I really want to read... phew! sorted that out... Today is Sunday and I got up late and feel all groggy - not good - but am gently easing myself into the day...

17th April 2008:

I am happy again... :-) and back on track... This evening I have got to make the cheesecake - we are having steamed salmon leeks and veg...

12th April 2008:

Ok, I will stop writing in the third person now... Still don't feel too much better... just got a very clogged up head... I have written off most of my tasks for this weekend to other weekends... and am left with less to do - and hopefully to write a bit in this diary - it's to help me think straight... I was going to make a mascarpone lemon cheesecake today with leftover ginger biscuits as the base but Jim's Mum is coming to visit next weekend and so I thought I would make it then... so that she can enjoy it too...

Ok... so the tasks I have put off are cleaning the flat - vacuuming and dusting which will be done during the week before Jim's Mum arrives... Also, listening to music at the moment while typing this... it is actually ok - been in a strange mood lately - and yes, the music is blocking out something - don't know what - but I seem to not hold onto threads that easily with the music going - except while in the car driving - it is very lucid...

Ok - also listening to 2046 soundtrack - it is a bit mind-expanding... anyway, don't know - just know that I have lost something in the back of my mind and perhaps it is letting me throw my worries aside...

I have cleared the newspapers away - tidied the bedroom and put some washing on - if I achieve anything today - it has got to be two loads of washing - desperately needing to be done... all the rest can wait... except we are having tomato penne pancetta for dinner tonight - except Jim is making that - so that's taken care of... work this week is busy but people are out of the office and so I should be able to get my head down and do quite a bit of work...

The only other thing I want to do today is read through my insurance documents from ibuyeco and double check all the info is correct... ok - have done that...

It looks like a nice day and perhaps it is an ideal time to go for a short walk... To clear our heads...

Ok... we went for a walk but got caught out in the rain on the way back...

I have done the other load of washing and now just listening to music - then I think I will watch some more stuff that we recorded on the MythTV box...

I might also email a few friends... I feel chilled out at the moment... I might watch Solaris...

11th April 2008:

Annie work up this morning feeling depressed - and so she set about doing depressing things... and found it hard to get out of the rut... it's as if she really wanted the world to hate her... and did things that re-confirmed this...

... but now she is getting back on track and is feeling more positive and happy to play catch up with the day today... Now she is going to pay attention to that rumbling tummy and get something to eat - most probably the nice bowl of cereal that is mainly eaten on Sunday lunchtimes... she is getting there again slowly...

Now it is 1.30pm... Annie has been around town shopping a bit with Jim... Now she has half done the filing stuff in the tray... and eaten lunch and had something to drink... Meal with parents is at 7pm tonight... she still doesn't feel any better after fully completing the filing task...

.. she bought a compass and a steel rule but still doesn't feel any better...

10th April 2008:

The deprived soul has so much to look forward to :-) I mean, that I can go on holidays in the future - to Thailand and all places within my budget now... I have a lot to look forward to... :-)

...Hello, I am back - and writing again... Am quite happy - been so this last week - hyper-organised and all excited about the future... perhaps it is the sunny weather lately...

... It must be the spring air - I have a sudden urge to write...

but what I want to write about is not appearing in words - but just positive images...